My posts have been few and far between as of late. On the surface it seems like it's because my life has been quite busy the past few months...I'm in a new relationship which is going extremely well, and I feel quite happy. I was out of the country for 3 weeks in January. After returning from that trip, I came down with the flu, and it took me about 3 weeks to fully recover from that. So a lot of things have been holding my attention and consuming my time.
But if you look just under all that, I feel I've been grieving very hard the past month or two. Spring has always been my least favorite season, ever since I was a child. I'm not sure why I disliked it so much then, but now as an adult there are a lot of reasons, all related to various forms of grief.
My late husband's birthday was February 27. I tried to treat it like any other day, but that was a failure. My mom passed away March 9, 2012, so I have that anniversary coming up; similarly, my dad died June 26, 2009. On top of that, my siblings' birthdays are all in the spring, and I haven't seen my sister or one of my brothers in almost 4 years; it's been even longer since I've seen my other brother. So there's some grief associated with that, as well as a healthy dose of guilt.
I'm getting through it, but it isn't fun. Still, I think I'm gonna be OK. Thank you for reading.
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